Under-aged Courage

During Lhorraine’s pregnancy, I would often read Jesher literature that was far above his reading level.  Why?  I honestly don’t know.  Maybe it was the first signs of unrealistic, parental goal-setting.  Or maybe my obsession with superhero films has compromised my thinking…causing me to believe that Jesher is a level-five mutant that can understand any concept (Honestly, I still do believe this!).  Or maybe I was motivated by the fact that Jesher could hear me but he couldn’t understand me; therefore, it was more the sound of my voice, than it was the content, that mattered most.  

Ironically, my favorite articles to read Jesher were articles detailing his development based upon his corresponding gestation week.  I wanted him to know what was going on inside his body and that meant teaching him his gestation chart.  I taught Jesher to appreciate the five nubs at the end of the four sticks he had attached to his torso.  He also knew about the cord that was attached to his tummy; I told him he could pull on it a little, but he couldn’t tug too hard because if he broke it he would have to buy it.  I would tell him what to expect in the upcoming week and which safe activities could help him pass the time.  I wanted him to learn about himself even in utero; I just never thought I would regret skipping the sections about premature birth.

Now, when I read the articles, a somber melancholy sweeps over me.  I think I keep reading each week’s gestational report out of curiosity.  Yes, it is heart-wrenching to read about the things Jesher should be developing versus utilizing, but I can’t help it!  I want to know which parts of his body need to be expedited by the Creator’s love.  And I want to speak encouragement to the organs that are attempting to respond to the crisis.  From his liver to his bone marrow, Jesher’s organs are being asked to function at 28 weeks like they are 38 weeks old.  His heart, lungs, and gallbladder are all attempting to do their best, but sometimes I can hear them all whispering to one another, “But we’re not ready yet.”

Jesher’s body is still in development mode, but we need it to be in execution mode.  It is a classic example of a ‘rude-awakening.’  One moment his system is building, and in one flash of a scalpel, his system is now forced to do a grand-opening while most of the supplies are still being shipped–due to arrive in 7-10 weeks.  He needs to feed, breath, fight bacteria, and poop, but this all has to be accomplished months before his body is ready to perform these functions.  His body is being forced to compensate where it can while hoping against all odds that the missing parts will arrive earlier than expected.

Every part of Jesher’s body is pulling four-times more weight than it should.  It is the most courageous thing I’ve ever witnessed.  Each cell is working two or three  back-to-back shifts without a break.  Some parts are holding up well.  Others are beginning to show signs of fatigue.  But no one is quitting.  Resilience, for Jesher, is not optional…it is mandatory, and it is clear; Jesher wants to live.

Here is Jesher’s current medical report:

LIVER–Jesher’s Direct Bilirubin levels have not yet normalized.  There are two types of bilirubin: direct and indirect.  The indirect bilirubin has subsided (this is treated by the blue light you have seen in many of his pictures), but the direct bilirubin is quite high (this must be processed by his liver and released through his gallbladder).   Jesher’s liver isn’t supposed to be filtering at this level until 34 weeks.  So the premature age of his liver is impacting the body’s ability to discard the direct bilirubin (which is now beginning to deposit in his skin).  PLEASE PRAY THAT JESHER’S LIVER AND GALLBLADDER WOULD BE GIVEN THE STRENGTH OF A FULL TERM BABY.

LUNGS–Jesher’s lungs are beginning to fatigue.  His new machine (the HFOV) is supporting him better than is prior ventilator, but the improvement we were seeing in his breathing have slowed noticeably.  At 27 weeks, Jesher’s alveoli and capillaries have not fully opened.  At this age, his lungs are supposed to be building more sacs that will capture oxygen molecules and distribute them to the blood stream once he is born.  Now, the lungs are being asked to function and build at the same time which can slow both processes and cause long-term damage.  PLEASE PRAY FOR JESHER’S LUNGS TO REMAIN STRONG UNDER THE CURRENT STRESS; ASK YAHWEH TO ALLOW HIS LUNGS TO MOUNT UP ON THE WINGS OF EAGLES.

BLOOD–The heart and veins of a baby usually finish their development between weeks 35-37.  So Jesher is still struggling to create the necessary amount of red blood cells (which also require the development of bone marrow).  Right now, Jesher’s vascular system is attempting to complete its task with 60% of its work-force on hand.  Jesher needs his vascular system to develop exponentially faster than it is currently calibrated to grow.  PLEASE PRAY THAT THE LORD WOULD SPEAK A WORD OVER JESHER TODAY, ACTIVATING HIS VASCULAR FUNCTIONS AND MATURING THEM IMMEDIATELY–LIKE HE DID FOR ADAM AND EVE.

Jesher’s body is fighting an intergalactic war.  It is under-resourced; it is out-manned and out-gunned.  But it isn’t quitting.  Whether you compare it to Gideon’s 300 or King Leonidas’ 300, you would still fall short of citing a historical battle that is replicating the intensity of Jesher’s War.  My son is under-aged and in need of a lot of support, but there is one thing he doesn’t lack.  Jesher has been gifted an eternal supply of courage.

“So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the LORD your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.”  Deuteronomy 31:6



16 thoughts on “Under-aged Courage

  1. One day soon we will shout the victory when you, Lhoraine and Jesher all walk into church together! My what a time!


  2. Michael and Lhorraine,

    My heart is so heavy for all of you and especially your precious son, Jesher. What a courageous baby! I pray everyday for his life and know that God not only hears prayers, but answers them. We must know that His answers are within His time and not ours. It is His son/your son fighting to stay here with you and grow up with a normal life. It WILL happen – believe it, live it, know it and make preparation for it!

    John 16:33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

    With Prayer and Love,
    Debbie Wright


  3. One thing Jesher doesn’t lack is an abundance of prayers being offered on his behalf. I’ve been lifting him up since receiving a early morning text of his arrival. This past Sabbath while visiting Miracle City, Pastor Franklin had a special prayer of healing for him. His name is being lifted up across the nation. Truly God will have compassion and answer
    our collective prayers. I’m claiming God’s promises and holding Him to his word. He said “You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it” John 14:14 NIV Be encouraged!
    Love you all. Aunt Darlene


  4. Keep fighting, my Little Love…my Jesher. You’re doing an amazing job! The fight in you is awe-inspiring! I, along with many world-wide, are covering you in prayer.


  5. Tiny but Mighty is indeed courageous. Will continue to pray for the requests you specified. A few years from now, I fully expect to see a full feature film about the making of this courageous, spiritual champion.


  6. We continue to pray for “our”son. Yes, I say our because I believe that intrcessory prayer should be as if I was directly affected , as if the person being prayed for were in some way my child my sibling my parent my dearest friend, me. And so I pray for you Lorraine and mostly Jesher. I pray oh God touch him tough him like you did hezekiah only granting him the promised 75 years. Not a partial healing associatedwith the wisdom you’ve given medical professionals. It God healing so all credit all thanks be given you. That we are thankful to men for their efforts. It now only you you God will we praise. This is what we ask. Step in and do you. Just do you for him. Please and yes thank you thank you so very much. Thank you!


  7. Just prayed for Jesher’s liver and gall bladder strength, his lungs to remain strong as on” eagles wings”, his blood system maturity, AND his continued courage for this AMAZING fight!! … To God of our silent tears, God who has helped Jesher thus far on his way…


  8. Praying for little Jesher and his parents every day. Surely our God hears the multiple pleas for this little bundle of joy. Stay encouraged and know that God hears and answers always in His own way and own time. And the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up. James 5:15
    Chris and Tony Cleveland


  9. Be encouraged! We know that God is Able! We continue to pray for Jesher’s miraculous healing and his mother and father’s enduring faith!
    Randolph and Michele Nelson


  10. I have been reading to Donald each and every day your updates on Jesher and Lhorraine and what powerful things you are saying with the help of God. It is not only strengthening to us but I believe for you and your family but you are giving others hope, faith and fortitude to ride this wave with you all. God is Good and he will deliver the supplies just when Jesher needs them I believe. We are standing in the gap for you, Lhorraine and our warrior Jesher. Can’t wait to see you guys and hug you, Prayers are continually with you. Elynda and Donald


  11. Michael and Lhorraine, I just came across this quote by Alan Redpath, British author and Pastor and thought of you two:

    “There is no circumstance, no trouble, no testing, that can ever touch me until, first of all it has gone past God and past Christ, right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with great purpose.”



  12. Thank you for the update and your words of encouragement as you are going through this . Continuing to pray for you , your wife and precious Jesher. God has a master plan for Jesher , continue to remain steadfast.
    Elder Theresa Ridley
    Miracle City Church


  13. I will not cease to pray for JESHUR. He is a courageous warrior and healing is happening everyday. We love you all and know that God has you in the palm of His hand. Gabriella


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